Cleaning Up My Home Enviroment

Adelisa necklace.  Fine and sterling silver handcrafted filigree necklace with a beautiful opalescent pink dichroic fused glass cabochon. (sold)


I am looking forward to having the energy and ambition to get my house whipped back into shape. I never did get the computer room, aka shop office finished.  Sad to say there are still parts of this house that I inherited that I have yet to completely go through.  I truly believe that this is the year I will be able to do so.

I am also looking forward to getting the yard back under control and growing a nice although small garden this summer.  Carrots, onions, potatoes, tomatoes and cucumbers are at the top of my list.  I'd like to grow lettuce and spinach too.  The only green beans I like are the ones in a can.  I'm too lazy to grow peas right now.  I'd rather buy frozen.  :)

Speaking of gardening I can hardly wait to see the new bulbs I planted last fall bloom this spring!  I have some ambitious plans for the shop yard this spring and summer.  The water catch basin needs to be re-done.  I want to pull it apart and put it back together as a dry creek. I will continue working on transforming the "shrub" border into a pretty flower bed.  I have one shrub left to remove and a wild rose that needs to be moved.  I am sure I will go into more detail when the time comes to work on these areas.

Mental & Spiritual Self Care

Large dragonfly suncatcher in iridescent light blue glass and navy blue waterglass.  Custom order.



First of I'd like to say that for me mental health and spirituality go hand in hand. Without spirituality I cannot have a healthy mental state. Here are a few of the things that I am doing to improve my mental and emotional self care.

I am starting my day with a positive message to myself.  Reminding myself that it is a bright new day full of wonderful possibilities.. That I am worthy and loved.  That I am an amazing, creative and talented human being.

I am working on making daily meditation a habit again.  Remembering to be grateful what I have. Practicing "letting go and let God".  Remembering to ask my higher power for help. Squashing negative thoughts and emotions when they start cropping up. And last but not least is that by living my life right I eliminate anxiety, stress and worry.

Taking Better Care Of My Health

Small Victorian/compass rose design in blues.






My primary goal in taking better care of my physical self in 2015 is by eating healthier.  So this year I'm working to eliminate excessive sugar and salt from my diet.  I want to get away from processed foods that are full of chemicals and other junk that drags us down and I want to get away from GMO foods and go organic where I can.

My plan is to take slowly and keep it simple.   Right now no more store bought commercially made junk food.  No more than one soda a day and it cannot contain brominated vegetable oil. Home cooked meals from scratch instead of processed junk. Prepping ingredients for meals ahead of time. Spending a day or two a month cooking and freezing meals for those days I just don't have the time of energy to cook.  Little things and choices that will add up to a happier healthier, more energetic me.

And I bet at this point you are wondering "What about exercise?"  Well as a checker I get a great work out at work!  Getting out of my chair and keeping up the house and yard are also excellent forms of exercise.  Combined with healthy eating and portion control I shouldn't need extra exercise and should still lose weight.

I am doing this more for the short term health benefits than the long term. I haven't felt or looked like the person I want to be for too many years. In the past six months my blood pressure has risen into the high end of the normal range and high blood pressure medications scare me. Good nutrition should improve my mental outlook while improving my energy and over all physical well being while helping me to lose weight and lower my blood pressure.  I am also hoping it will help with my dry skin issues as well.

BLOOM, My Word For 2015

Round pinwheel design in amber, orange and gold accented with pink.




I've chosen the word "Bloom" for the year 2015. I considered the words, "grow" or "rebuild".  Quite frankly I'm sick of feeling like I am rebuilding my life.  And grow just wasn't positive enough for me either.

The past two months I have made a great start in becoming who I want to be.  I want to continue that growth.  I want to thrive and bloom!  I know if I keep up the hard work and living my life right I will reap the rewards.  I'm not saying it will be easy.  But if I stay the course it will become easier.  Learning and instilling necessary good habits may be difficult, but once those habits are in place they will make my life much easier.  Not to mention the time it will free up.  To begin with I need to start taking better care of myself.  Physically, environmentally and mentally.  (For me mentally includes spiritually as to me they go hand in hand.)
 
Now I thought about going into more detail but I decided they will make great fodder for future blog posts.  So tomorrow I'll blog about improving my plans and goals of taking better care of myself physically.

Good Riddance 2014

Victorian oval in teal, seafoam and light purple.




2014 has been an extremely rough year for me. Physically, financially and mentally.  Let me just say reality sucks....

Physically I discovered I was a lot more exhausted than any of us (friends and family) thought.  I think we all thought after a month or so of good sleep I'd be caught up, healthy and ready to go again.  It took months.  For months I slept 12 to 14 hours a night.  Towards the end of June my body started to get into a more regular sleep pattern.  It was towards the end of October before I really started to get my energy and stamina back and to feel like myself again.


Financially I am finally (although extremely slowly) crawling out of the financial hole I've put myself in.  I was hired as a checker at one of our three local Safeway's stores at the end of June.  I still enjoy being a checker.  At this point I have volunteered for closing shifts.  I am hoping for three, eight hour shifts a week.  This leaves me most of the day to work for myself in the glass shop.  I can work in the shop and still go to work checking without any problems.  It doesn't work in reverse as I am too tired from checking to work on glass projects in the shop afterwards.

Mentally/emotionally this year has been another one from hell and ranks in the top three of the most horrible times in my adult life. I've had to give up a lot more life long dreams and expectations.   I've dealt with a lot of guilt and resentment and self hatred. Not to mention feelings of loss, inadequacy and worthlessness.  Confrontation of denial.  Who and what I thought I am was destroyed.  My foundations were thoroughly rattled.  My self confidence, self respect and self worth were left in tatters.

I have been blessed with my beloved sisters of the heart, new and old who have kept me going the past six months.  They have been there for me.  Listening, supporting and loving me. They have been an inspiration in  my darkest hours because if they survived so can I and I don't want to let them down.  They have been my anchors throughout this depressing time.  I hope they realize that.  I am so grateful for them and my sons for all their love and support.

July & August 2014

The past two months have been quite the roller coaster ride.  Extremes in every aspect of my life.  

Due to all the new and increased demands in my life and on my time I have had to make the painful decision to put my Etsy shop on vacation.  I am available through the Etsy e-mail/contact system and also on my Facebook page.  I can always do a custom listing for something one might of had their eye on!   

I started a new job as a grocery checker on July seventh.  Due to "new job" fatigue and illness I pretty much ate, slept and worked the first six weeks.  I am finally starting to get into the swing of things I think. I am feeling more energetic than I have in years.  I am getting a great work out while working and I am re-discovering how much I enjoy being a checker. (I was checker at a pet food store many years ago.) 

I am starting to learn to balance my time in the glass shop when I'm not at my checker job along with housekeeping, yard work and fixing up my garage.  My relationship shriveled up and died along with some dreams. Reality is cold, hard and brutal.  It has made me look hard at myself and I think I've learned a lot about myself.  

So for now I am learning to balance the most immediate concerns in my life.  With learning that balance I will be able to gradually add other things back into my life.  Part of this is also catching up where I left off about three years ago home and yard wise.  A good topic for another day.

Welcome 2014, Another New Year & A New Life

Here are some pictures of the necklace I made to go with the earrings that are on the top.  This lovely set I named "Dawn's Promise"  after a food friend and the fact that the colors of the dichroic glass cabochon reminded me of a morning sunrise's light glowing on our Cascade Mountains.  This set and several pairs of earrings went to a local jewelry store.  The owner has them displayed in her front window even!  And this set was sold a week before Christmas.   What a wonderful boost to my jewelry making ego.

I was convinced to quit my paper routes and did so at the end of the year.  In hindsight I am very grateful that I did quit.  This past year has really worn on me, ground me down.  I have been ill pretty much every six weeks.   And so I have not had nearly enough energy to even keep up with things let alone get ahead.  And ill health doesn't just mess with me physically, it also screws with me financially.  I'm tired-so it's easier to get a pizza or some fast food.   Too icky to work, but not tired enough to sleep means I want distractions-like a book.  Etc;, etc;   

I am so grateful to be free of this awful cycle.  I look forward to a happier and healthier new year.  To finally be able to do so many things that I need to, want to and have been putting off for far to long.  

One of these things will be a thorough housecleaning from top to bottom. Every nook crevice, cranny and storage hole included.  I will sort, give away, toss and so organize this place from top to bottom.

Another one is to eat healthier.  More cooking from scratch and meal planning. I have most of the grocery shopping done.  I do need to get a few more things, but I have already started by cooking a nice, big ham for dinner tonight.  Tomorrow night my other half will be making us ham and cheese omelettes. I've already put another two meals in the freezer, the ham bone for a nummy pot of beans and a nice chunk of ham for a ham steak meal.  I will divide up the rest of the ham slices into packages for future meals like sandwiches, omelettes, frying or what ever else I choose to do with it.

I feel so much better and healthier already.  I have so much more energy.  I believe I forgot what it was like to feel human.  


I'll write more later!